I’m so sorry to hear that flower, know that you are still doing great when you have bad days 
We had both a wonderful and bad weekend, wonderful because we had fun with the kids, they were well behaved and just great value, we all cooked together, gorged on lamb and spent today with Oma & Opa. However I felt rotten, lethargic, drained of all willpower, and I just wanted to curl up and shut the world away. That in turn made my anxiety worse which set off my trick heart which then spiralled my anxiety as I feared it was getting worse again. I did need to take a Diazepam in the end, but I came through this evening and even had some time for a game.
Some days just trip me up from nowhere, and its still difficult to slog through them. Sincerely great job that you can do the same, if I can help in any way I am always here, I am no kind of professional, I have kids draining my energy & I am a neurotic mess but I am here, always. 
GREAT JOB flower!!! 